countdown: 5 weeks to go

OK enuf doggie talk for now. My last few posts have been abt my pooches. Hehe. I’ve 5 weeks left now. Strangely, the boss appears to be in some sort of denial that I’ll be leaving. He seems to pass on work to me like before and doesn’t seem to take into account the fact that I only have slightly more than a month more to go. The weirdest was yesterday when he said that he’d want to send me out to cut deals for him and asked if I was willing. Errm...wtf! With only 5 weeks left in the company, what is the whole point of training me for that?! Even some colleagues noticed and jokingly say that he must’ve thot that I’ve changed my mind. Hell no! The mind’s not changed...for sure!

Earlier this week when I went on a day’s leave, it seemed that the boss went helter skelter as he could not work out a powerpoint report that I had prepared for him the week before. The next day when I returned to the office, he told me how he had missed me cos there was no one else who could teach him abt the powerpoint stuff. Haha. Serves him right! Being the last min person he is, he indulges in creating chaos for the rest of us making us run around like headless chickens just minutes before he’s abt to go for his meeting to get things ready for it. So he panicked when I wasn’t around to get the report ready despite that I’d given him the report the Friday before for review. Hmmph! I did not feel sorry for him! Tsk...tsk...

Then this morning he called me a snob! Argh…the nerve of him. He sat me in for one of his infamous prep talks and lectured me on how I could go so far with my intelligence and all I need to work on is to bring out my personality which I tend to guard ever so closely – that is until I’ve had a few drinks and my smiley affable personality comes shining thru so brightly (aargghh...vague memories of X’mas party comes flooding back...*yikes*) - and how I ought not to judge ppl so freely – that’s when he said that I’m actually a snob! Hmmph! Well, I gez he did nail some points. I do tend to appear snobbish and guarded most of the time. But it’s not without good cause. That’s becos eversince the beginning of time, he’s infiltrated my mind with cautious thots abt being aloof and keeping my distance from other staff, assimilating a rather cold working environment. So naturally my defenses went up and I’d decided that I had to be v.careful how I thread my way around. Therefore I carry a v.different persona at work and I try not to reveal too much of me to the boss or my colleagues. But alas, at the boss’s X’mas party, I had let my hair down a bit too much, with the help of some bubbly consumption *hic*, and now they’ve seen that other side of me. Haha! Oops...

Sometimes I think that the boss actually cares abt me to give me some good tips on...well...life in general and share some of his experiences with me. He says a lot of positive things abt me and I think he really does think quite highly of me in some ways. But at other times I suspect it’s just a tactic of his to try to gain loyalty and I do not buy into everything he says. Hmm…

Oh well...I can’t wait for the day I say farewell to him and the company. I shall miss a handful of friends I made here but that’s abt it – there are some witches here whom I’ll be most delighted to disassociate from. Ugh! *shudder* Then I’ve lots of soul searching to do...heh!